Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Thunder Ponies

I just finished updating my dog journal. I tried Rocket out with his Thunder Shirt while I ran to Wallyworld and... He may have been less freaked out? He was still pacing and panting and he did go to the door but he stayed on his feet by the door and didn't jump up and turn off his light, he also didn't tip the cable box off the top of the TV, which he has done in the past, like on Sunday while I was at church. He ultimately went back to the futon where he was very much awake and panting but not freaking out. He did not drink his water until I came home and he was clearly very thirsty but he was too stressed out while I was gone to be able to drink.

We have a long way to go. But he did not wet the floor or tear off the shirt or get destructive.

Rocket is eating like a real dog! If I had known all it would take was Mighty Dog, I would have started feeding him from its teeny, tiny cans from the get-go. He is now eating two cups of his  pricey (but available at Wallyworld!) grain free food and half a teeny can of cheap, wet  dog crack. I think the extra calories will make a big difference this winter when he needs them the most. Over the summer its not as bad, but he tends to look a little too thin sometimes and he is never interested in food the way dogs are. He can take all day to eat breakfast and that isn't normal. I see all these dog food bowls that are specially designed to keep dogs from inhaling their meals and force them to take their time eating. If your dog eats too fast they can bloat and that is deadly. I can at least say my dog doesn't have that problem ( yet). But who knows, maybe he'll start now that he thinks eating is kind of fun.

Today it did not rain and it was gorgeous and we happily took a long walk minutes after I got home. It was nice.

I almost punched a co-worker today because she sighed heavily and announced Oh, can you believe its only Tuesday?! I was like, OMG shut the fuck up. Just stop. And then she  whined about talking to crazy people all day and how long winded they are and I said Redirect them! Cut off the tangent! Ask a new question and keep the interview moving, help them stay on track, its not mean, it helps them get their ideas across and explain their problems - letting them talk about the sparkle pony  they knew thirty years ago does not help them  today. And also, we do not care about the sparkle pony unless it abused, neglected or exploited  them within the last calendar year and she was like "Oh, I mean, you know, you know how they are..." and I was like yes, REDIRECT THEM, read between the lines!. Its your job. GAWD.

Tuesday, September 30, 2014


Today I walked the dog in the drizzle. Not for me. because I can ride the exerbike, but  for him. I want him to have another day like he appeared to have today.

I checked in with him every hour or so for a five seconds and he was always happily sacked out on the futon, he looked very relaxed and calm. I could have just missed the few minutes of total panic he has every day or he didn't have them because he got the panic exercised out of him over the weekend.I saw no signs of him being upset.

SO he had a good day. Today he had two short walks  and in between he spent the day  lounging and watching TV. When I came home from work, he had a long walk, in the rain. Neither of us was particularly happy about the drizzle and I got very tired of my umbrella, we got our walk. I see it has being a good dress rehearsal for once the time changes and we have to bolt the minute I get home. I came home, changed shoes and we were out the door by 4: 30. We returned almost exactly one hour later. It wasn't  our more expansive, three mile walk, but it was a good two and a half and I think that's a good distance.

We would have gone the whole three, but it was raining and it didn't seem like something we needed to do today. We can try tomorrow. I still rode the exerbike while he spent the time trotting back and forth to his room and bring back toys to play with. But calmly trotting back and forth, it was cute.

I also got him fitted with his Thunder Shirt. The new size fits like a glove and he seems comfortable in it. This is his first try out in it. The directions say that I am to have him wear it two or three times for an hour or so before going for a real trial with it. I think that we're going to go for the gold on Friday.

Friday is First Friday and I will be leaving him at home, past Fridays he has not been at all happy about it and really suffered. I need him to not suffer and to be happy.

Monday, September 29, 2014

An exhausted weim is a happy weim

I fell behind on my Behavior journaling! I feel really bad about letting it slide the last few days. It wouldn't stop raining, we didn't get our evening walks, his Thunder Shirt sagged when it was supposed to cling and he peed the floor. There was a lot going on.

But I got caught up and I found the receipt for the shirt (turns out that for an exchange, one is not needed, but if it doesn't work out, even in the smaller size, I can take it back without worry) and I got the next smaller size. There is hope for us all.

I am learning that Rocket needs a med that is much longer working than what he has now. He is super awesome in the morning, immediately after he is dosed. he is calm, quite and together  - right up until they wear off, mid afternoon when he becomes stressed, anxious and uncomfortable. He  jumps off the futon, begins to pace, stand by the door and the  crosses to stand in the window, he does not do these things in the morning. It is clear that he needs a different medication, not just more of what he has now, although, the increase has helped, its just not enough.

I didn't know how important his daily walks are to to frame of mind! I knew it he needs the exercise, but it was never so clear that he needs it more that for keeping in shape! Good, daily exercise is good for both mind and body. It became evident from watching him that on days he does get a walk, he is much calmer  and at ease the next day, on the other hand, on days he does not get a walk, he is stressed and higher strung. I didn't know this and it makes it even more important that I keep up the walks, the exerbike is good for me but it does nothing for him.

Today we went on one lengthy walk int he late afternoon and a second less far walk, after dinner. I am hoping that his Monday afternoon is better than it was Wednesday, I really hate cleaning up dog pee.

Friday, September 26, 2014

Spying on my dog

Today on  Dog Spy Video : Rocket slept mostly all day right up until 2:12 pm when he suddenly woke up, paced the room, scratched at the door, stood  there at the door waiting for ... something? someone? and then peed on the floor. Ta Da. I think tomorrow I will limit how much water he drinks at lunch.

Today I tried an experiment, I called the house to see if it seemed to get his attention or distract him but it didn't seem to, because I thought maybe the phone rings and was what gets him all distracted and upset in the afternoons, he didn't seem to have any reaction to the sound.  The rest of the afternoon he hung out on the futon but seemed very alert and not calm or at ease. Yesterday he didn't so the door stuff and pacing until 3pm.

Maybe its the cat?

He is very calm and together in the morning, although today he was more alert today in the morning  hours when I looked in on him than he was yesterday. I didn't spend nearly as much time with him as I did the first day because watching the feed eats data like mad, so I had to cut back.  Sigh.

We went to Cause 4 Paws and Rocket learned that he lives for pumpkin! He loves it, he needs it, and he wants to spend more time with it. Pumpkin is super good for dogs and its a great addition to their diets - in moderation, because otherwise it gives them diarrhea. Rocket was not feeling moderation this evening - but it does make me want to make some pumpkin cookies for him.

 I need to be making cookies starting now anyway for Christmas unless I want to work like a galley slave later on and I do not, it takes a lot of the fun out of the whole thing and I end up not enjoying the process. Its too much work to do if you aren't happy in your work.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Dr. Rocket and Mr. Miserable

What I learned on the first day of  Video Dog Spy 2015

1. Rocket sleeps a lot. A lot. Like almost all day. He was awake ad alert briefly after I left. He played with his peanut butter toy and then stands in the window then retired to one end of his futon. He sleeps on his toys. Any toy that is not on the futon is not a toy of his. He is awakes  briefly ever few hours and he either watches TV or looks out the window, never leaving the futon.

2. In the afternoon he wakes up more fully more often and at 3pm and leaves his futon to go stand by the door. He stands in the window for five minutes and then stands by the door for ten minutes and then goes back to the futon, but the other end of the futon. He is more alert in the afternoon.

3. He plays with his frozen toys as I am leaving and plays with them for 10-15 minutes. He is doing exactly as the books say he will.

This was great. I was thrilled with the results. He was calm, he was collected and seemed to be displaying no signs of stress or anxiety. I wanted him to spend the day relaxed and happy and he was just that. This dog is not an anxious mess! He's doing great! Everything  we're doing is working!

 And then I went out in the early evening and left him at home.

1. He scratched hysterically at the door, barked and tried to climb the wall. He was on his back legs a lot. He turned off the light and the fan while he was wildly scraping at the door to get out. He paced all of the room and appeared to be very upset and frightened. He was in almost constant motion.

2. He also turned off his TV. He paced back and forth while panting and drooling heavily. He slid his food dish across the floor and didn't eat any of it. He dumped his empty water bowl over and wet on some old carpet. He kept these behaviors up for forty-five minutes. He finally went back to the futon and lay on it panting until I came home.

3. He was exhausted ans stressed out and miserable.

I was very unhappy with the results. He was hyperactive and miserable and clearly about out of his mind with fear and anxiety the whole time I was gone. It was painful for me to watch and torturous for him. He is an anxious mess. He's doing badly. Nothing we are doing is working.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Happy Birthday Elizabeth!!!!!




Watching You

Once again my plan was to get this done at a reasonable time and not keep myself up past my bedtime clacking away. Clack. Clack. Life happens. Todays adventures in Life are brought to you by CPI Security. My old system was, well, old and very throughly 20 Century and it was time to move on. Also they couldn't service it any longer and the parts no longer exist. So. New System.

The 21 Century has been very kind to home alarms! It has a slick new touch screen keypad and a fancy fire detector and the most best thing of all : All Dog Spy All The Time! I have a camera and I can spy on Rocket all day! If he does something very crazy, I can save the footage! I am going to be dog spying all the time now! Wheee!!! I can  also alarm and disarm it from any computer or my phone. Very cool. Needless to say I find it terrifying.

I did put on my big girl panties and practiced arming and disarming it , once, but I think I'm going to wait until this weekend to really go to town on it. I am especially interested in being able to use the ap to work it, but unfortunately, the instruction manual doesn't cover it at all.

The guy showed me, but its too easy and I know I will have the SWAT team at my house the first time I use it. The installer told me there are two kind of people, those who trip their alarm and those who  are not using their alarms. So, if you use  the system you are going to accidently trip it, if you don't use the alarm you are never going to trip it but you aren't using the alarm either

I also learned that about eighty percent of the alarm calls they record are false alarms. That still means twenty percent of the time they are for real.

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Monday, Monday


Worked all day. Got used to being at  my stifling work environment without my work buddy who went to work in an even more stifling work environment. Says a lot about our environment that it compares unfavorably with working on death row ( literally, where we work is more awful than working with condemned prisoners on death row). At least I have windows.

I came home.

I walked the dog.

The dog and I ran errands

I went to Burger Yucky.

I rode the exerbike. Yay Exerbike.

Rocket and I went to get a him a replacement name tag and Doggy's First Thundershirt. Came home, put on the tag - way nice, much nicer than the lost tag. Doggy got bling. Then we tried on the Thundershirt, according to the numbers it should fit. It does not. Tomorrow, we go back to the store and return the too big Thundershirt and get the next smaller size, also, possibly will ask for assistance with fitting of said shirt. I looked online and the video tutorials that were available were not helpful.

We will do this after the security company comes and upgrades my system and brings me a New and Improved Dog Spy 2014- Now with Video! I hope this gives me a better idea of what he does all day and what if anything causes him to become upset. I will ask if the camera can be moved if Rocket is ever at a point he can be loose in the house, because I will definitely need to be able to see what he is doing then. because, reasons.

Today saw some improvement in Rockets  day. In the morning he stood at the door  two separate times for about forty minutes each time, . In the after noon he was not at the door until I came home, I do not know what he is doing  or where he is in the room when he is out of the sight of the lense. It was however, an improvement. I still think he needs higher doses and I haven't seen any changes do to the pheromone collar I had to buy, I do not see being a repeat customer.

Really need to get in touch with the behaviorist to see what can we do next. Well, I'll have to wait. I re-read the discharge orders and  while I am supposed to get in touch with her, I am supposed to get in touch with her three weeks from our appointment and today is day eleven, I know this because I am faithfully keeping a Daily  Behavior Diary. I am officially supposed to email her an update on Rocket on October 2, with our next face-to-face appointment in October 27.

I would get in touch earlier  if there was a crises or his mood and behavior got dramatically better or dramatically worse, but it hasn't done anything dramatic or otherwise. It is remarkable in its unremarkableness.

Monday, September 22, 2014


Life Skills

I am going to try to live the serenity prayer. I am going to focus on what a good dog Rocket is, how good with small children and even babies he is, how he loves all people of all sizes and temperaments, I'm going to think about how friendly he is with other dogs of all sizes and temperaments. I'm going to remember that he is fearless and welcomes wheelchairs and scooters and bikes without trepidation, I'm going to think about how good he is off leash and what good recall he has, I'm going to ponder his trick learning and be amazed.

He might end up being a very good therapy dog, I hadn't considered it in the past but it is worth giving some thought to as we move forward. I am not going to think about how he washed out of his Canine Good Citizen, Community Canine test  on Saturday because he was not able to perform this

 #8 Down or sit stay–distance (owner's choice).
Dog is on 20–ft line, owner walks away with back to dog, picks up an item (e.g., backpack, training bag, clipboard, folder etc.) placed on the floor/chair/ground by the evaluator and returns to the dog.

We got two of the ten done before we hit our Waterloo. I didn't even stick around for the rest of the test. I didn't know what the test would cover before hand, only that it was being given and I thought it might be a nice feather in Rockets collar. Seeing the requirements now, I don't think we are interested in sitting for this test again and we should not have tried in the first place. It all seems completely arbitrary and entirely too focused on obedience skills and  does not allow for dogs with special needs at all.  I do not believe that it covers skills a dog needs to be a good canine citizen in the community. It is the first year the AKC  has  offered it, and I hope that with feedback, which they are surely getting, that they will change the requirements and rethink the goals of test, how it is given, and how they interpret the dogs behaviors.

Other than that bitter pill, we had a good weekend. We went on walks and went to a Hispanic Festival downtown and that was very fun, we went shopping with Broskey and Alphagal and the littles and that was fun too. I did have to take the laptop to Brosky and Alphagals ICU for Sick Computers because it was infected and feverish and all out of sorts and that was sad making - Fortunately,  Broskey flushed it of its multiple impurities and toxins and sent it on its way. I am much relieved. I am also now running multiple anti-virus and  anti-malware programs to help keep it clean and happy.Yay!

Friday, September 19, 2014

Friday Cat Blogging

Answer the questions or ...

Not getting better

And then the week was over. I went eight consecutive days not getting back to the house "on time" For me this is unheard of and it made me  feel very unbalanced . I have a rut and I like my rut.

Do you know what makes you feel better after  failing miserably unsuccessfully trying to remove unwanted crapware from your computer? A doggy cuddle. I feel much better now, little dog didn't even have to wake up to make me feel much, much better. He's magic. I wish I could carry him around in my pocket and pull him out during the day when I need a quick dog hit. There are days I would spend all day face down in him. I wouldn't get much done but I would feel so much better and I bet I would be more productive, even face down in the dog. He's my Thunder Shirt.

Speaking of little dog, Friday starts the first day of  Project Dog Spy. I think I have focused pretty well. I decided that I was going to see how long he spends at the door and how often he goes there. I'm hoping this will help  . I just spent twenty minutes searching for my Dog Behavior Journal I am keeping for the behaviorist. I couldn't find it because I tidied and I was afraid I tidied it into the ether, which is what I do. I was trying to figure out why I would of hide the DBJ, its not shameful, its not full of secrets and its not at all interesting or embarrassing. I had no reason to make it disappear. And yet, I made it disappear. I wasn't anywhere I stash things in the name of Tidy. I think I am mildly ashamed that it is a proper journal that I bought just for the purpose. It was on sale damn it! Very marked down, it cost a total of $2.50! Its mole skin with dog images stamped in it and I bought it on purpose because there is no way I could keep track of the  notebook paper they gave me! There! out of the dog shame closet! I bought a tool on sale . Damn it.

If I had bought it for its stated purpose, some kind of  dog and dog owner address book and dog count

Next Tuesday I am having a video camera installed by my security company. They are also going to bring my system into the 21 Century, but really they are coming to instal a camera so I can spy on my dog with my cell phone all day. I could care less about a new key pad and the 21st century. They are going to make it easier to spy on my dog.

I did finally find it. It was not tidied away, it was on the coffee table. I needed the exercise I got from speed pacing the house and opening every drawer and every door. Totally necessary. I did find my book and I was able to make my notes and everything is fine. I wish the behaviorist had told me what to write and what to note, I'm not sure anything I'm making note of is relevant. I don't see any changes yet from his bump in meds, I would like to see some changes from the bump. perhaps it was not enough of a bump.

Maybe I should get him a thunder shirt

Thursday, September 18, 2014

everything takes time

The malware is taking  longer  to get off the  laptop than I had anticipated  and before I started that project, I decided  to work on getting the Dog Spy 2000 up and running. Getting it focused right to me forty minutes.

 It was then I remembered  we are  having a going away luncheon  for one of our coworkers  and Rocket will be spending the day in daycare.

M Dog Spy is a great tool, but it doesn't  have a fish eye and it only takes stills. My security company  is running a deal and I all ready know my  system is antiquated  and they can not fix it any longer. The new deal includes a we webcam. Mama  an upgrade.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014


Groan. I found something yucky on my computer and I have to get it cleaned out and figure out where it came from and also The Mindy Project is back and I am so excited to have an actual scripted show to watch.

So.  Have a good day. Yay.